hi there. lovely to make your collective acquaintance. and many thanks to you all for being here
my name is lara. i'm 39, am a north american transplant who relocated to the UK for work five years ago, and reside in the northeast near to newcastle :Good Luck
i don't know whether this is feeling common amongst others on, or around the time of diagnosis...
but in all honesty 'this' is the among the last places i thought i would find myself :shock:
i have always been a 'big gurl' with a tendency to eat my feelings, and thus have amassed a curio cabinet of maladies - which i assume responsibility for, largely as a consequence of my lifestyle/choices (e.g.: pcos, nonalcoholic steatohepatitis & hypertension). for good measure i was diagnosed in my teens with hashimotos thyroiditis, and - admittedly the most challenging battle of all - have struggled with a longstanding history of clinical depression :(
that said i have coasted along relatively well, and - despite my somewhat sedentary state - manage to peel myself out from under the duvet for the occassional 10k or half-marathon so as to prove to myself that: a.) even though it may take me half a day to complete i am still physically capable & b.) i am still well enough to do so in the absence of a stroke and/or cardiac arrest ;)
in tandem with said depression i have experienced headaches and lethargy. thus when headaches became more frequent and i became even more tired over the last two to three years i thought little of it. i went to the gp, swapped ssris on numerous occassions, visited the rheumatologist to no avail + my endocrinologist to double check my thyroid, and ultimately was counseled to de-stress... get my a$$ on the treadmill... drink heaps of water... and refrain from putting anything in my mouth that didn't need to be there :quiet:
things got so bad in the past couple years that on two seperate occassions i turned up to the gp and was signed off work for due to what was thought to be depression - though headaches, fatigue, and cognitive features (e.g.: problems with memory, word finding, and feeling uber spaced out) were the precipitating factors :frustrated
in december of last year i started to see stars when i would get out of bed, whilst in the shower, when bending over, and sometimes getting out of a chair. i figured it was my blood pressure, and my gp thought the same so she upped my lisinopril. then come march of this year things got really weird as i started to hear things (unbeknownst to me at the time this was tinnitus), see things (which i now know to be associated with paps), my headaches were off the rails, i was so exhausted i could barely get out of bed, and cognitively i was not operating as i should
if i am honest i was TERRIFIED, less because of what was happening, and more because of my theory as to why... as i was absolutely petrified that if my symptoms were psychiatric and linked to depression (in that to date all that i had been experiencing was thought to be) that i may fully be losing the plot. not that there is anything wrong with and/or remotely undignified about losing the plot, but as someone who works in social services and has academic responsbilities in higher education, if this was in fact the case i was panicked that my licensure, academic tenure, and ability to support/care for myself as a single person may be in jeopardy :afraid:
(pardon the oversharing... and excessive emoticon use... i'll be bringing this home here in just a jiff)
to make a long story short i crawled back into the gp... told her i was seeing & hearing things (at this point i was also dizzy & doing the occassional face plant whilst walking to and fro) and that i was terrified i was losing the plot. she looked in my eyes... shuffled me off to the eye infirmary straight away... and a ct, two mris, four lps, numerous visits with opth/neuros, a couple of visual field tests, and a partridge and a pear tree later i was diagnosed with iih at april end dance
things aren't sorted quite yet, in that despite upping the diamox to 1000mg and dropping a stone my pressures seem to be increasing (i had my last lp yesterday and the opening pressure was 45)... but i've not been sectioned ;), the care and attention i have received has been both speedy & phenomenal... and i could not be more grateful to be clued in as to what's really been going on
MASSIVE THANKS to all of you for being here at the ready via this forum... as the info i've gleaned whilst in limbo awaiting a definitive diagnosis has been invaluable. not to mention the fact that having y'all at my fingertips made me feel like i wasn't alone :flower:
hugs,
-lara p.